April 1st, 2003 by Yvonne
I found the problem of why do I seem demanding to other people. When I was healthy, I was a very aggresive girl. I’m fast at responding and have a quick pace while walking. I talk fast and everything else is fast too. Even now, I’m still aggressive although I cannot walk as much as I could and I cannot hear as clear as how I used to, in the past. I like challenges and motivations. When I’m given a task, I can finish it within a day or two. But I thought that this aggresiveness is shared among other people as well. I expected others to be like me. But my assumptions are wrong. It is very rare that duplications of me actually exist. I remember asking for other people’s favor and I expected them to give me what I want in a very short time. I was very wrong. I have to understand that not all people are like me. I thought that I was very understanding. but I was wrong. I did not understand other people at all. I was so bad I demanded so many graphics from Wei Jie, I was fickle minded too. I was evil to expect Kenrick to be like the guys I’ve known. You won’t know this but I feel so bad and regretful on this attitude of mine. So sorry for the people that I’ve ‘taken’ advantage of unknowingly. But I shouldn’t say sorry to them directly, they’ll think I’m fussy.
U know what happened today? Keisha was SO SWEET to order flowers for me but I didn’t tell her that my operation is delayed and the florist went delivering them to the hospital. SO SORRY!!!!!!
I’d really like to apologise to everyone, especially those that I’ve made to hate me in one way or another. Because after this brain surgery, no one could predict what would happen. I may recover, but there is also a high risk that I might be comatised, lost my memory or changed my attitude. I might never be the same again. but ofcourse, this is what I don’t hope for. I wish that ALL my nerves can be preserved. But like David said, there is no quick fix. I understand it…I really do…
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