Yvonne Foong

This is one of those sleepless nights again. I want to sleep. I am in fact a little worn out after a long day. Most people think I am tough, but its not true. I have my fears, just as everyone else has. And my fears are greater by the presence of NF. Tonight, I woke up in the middle of my sleep being bothered by the slightly greater tinnitus. In an instant, I am being reminded of my partial hearing impairment. Keisha have always been positive that a cure is underway, in the very near future. But how soon can that be? Will it be soon enough before my hearing is totally gone?

I was deaf for more than two weeks in early February so I seriously know how it feels like to be unable to hear. It’s not just the sounds that we’re deprived of, but also the sense of security. I was suppressed by the communication barrier and felt annoyed that people cannot understand me. Worse still, people cannot accept the possibility that a young girl like me is deaf. Even now that I can hear, the problem already exist. But how can I blame other people when not even my own parents understand my needs? Until today, they are still not sensible enough to speak at my direction and quit mumbling. I really don’t understand this. Do they think I am pretending? No, they certainly don’t think so but if they understood what I am feeling, they will probably respond better. People are only aware of the physical aspect of hearing impairment. We have feelings too, you know!

Until today, I am still waiting for my welfare aid to be approved so I can put on that biCROS of mine that has been in the possession of its manufacturer. Life is like this. When you truly need it, you get it difficultly. I really pray that I won’t have to loose my hearing. As an auditory learner and a music lover, I cannot imagine having to live without sounds. I want to listen to Lee Hom forever.

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