Today is 11th May 2018, I am feeling physically weak. Last week I met Dr Lim my ENT at Assunta Hospital. I asked him whether there was something wrong with my vocal chord or airway as I have difficulties speaking. So he did an endoscopy and saw that nothing was wrong. Everything was the same. My left vocal chord paralysed like it has always been. Nothing changed. So he thought that maybe my whole body was weaker including my chest muscles and diaphragm as he heard that my voice was vibrating when I spoke. My overall physical weakness made breathing and speaking more difficult. I personally think that this is due to the impact of my last surgery done in January which was extensive, involving the removal and then the replacement of a rib bone. Furthermore, my cervical spinal cord tumour is currently weakening and destabilising the entire left side of my body which might be adding more stress to my physical structure too.
I am lucky that I lived with my mom. Despite her age of 69 and her own physical frailty, she is still around to take care of me in my daily living. Such as feeding me, preparing food and bathing me. She also cleanses the house every day and makes sure that I am alright. Without her, I would have to do everything when I can not. However, I do hope that my mom would keep her furniture more orderly and her things better organized so that I can have more space to walk around the house.
I look forward to my cervical spine surgery on 23rd May 2018. I believe removing the cervical spinal cord will relief a lot of stress from my body and thus returning it back to its originality.
I want to thank everyone who has been helping to raise funds for my cervical spine surgery in recent months. I can not do it without you.